A bartender’s faith and the death of Robert Berry

By Ben Smith

When Kimberly “Berly” Logan became a bartender at Houston’s Peachtree, she expected to hear stories from those she served. But when one customer turned into a friend who was determined to self-destruct, she wanted to offer more than a listening ear.

Their conversations didn’t save him, but they ended up changing her.

Photo of Robert Berry, an eccentric, sometimes flamboyant Atlanta writer who died last month at age 55.

Robert Berry was an eccentric, sometimes flamboyant Atlanta writer who died last month at age 55. (Credit: Robert Berry)

Her friendship with Robert Berry began a decade ago at the restaurant bar north of Piedmont Hospital, where she served him bottles of Amstel Light and he often questioned God’s existence and asked, “Why?”

It ended last month in a hospice where she held the 55-year-old Berry’s jaundiced hand as he waited to die from liver failure and apparent complications from diabetes. Berry, an eccentric, flamboyant writer who once wrote features for the Atlanta Journal-Constitution, passed away May 24 at age 55.

Their age difference of 23 years (Logan is 32) was only their most obvious difference. He was an “atheistic-agnostic” she said; Logan a devout Christian. When they first met, Berry’s best years as a professional writer lay behind him. He had left the AJC for corporate marketing leading into the 1996 Olympics, and worked as a creative director for several firms.

Logan, a 2002 graduate of Georgia Tech, was just a few years into independence as an adult.

While witnessing Berry’s choices hasten his death, she saw more clearly the importance of love in her own life.


Over the counter at Houston’s, she and Berry got to know each other when she was assigned “grunt” shifts early Sunday, starting at 12:30 pm.  “You can’t serve alcohol in Georgia until then,” she said. “Robert would show up at Houston’s and hang out for hours.”

Berry could be witty and impulsive. When a customer who Logan had cut off retaliated by tossing a glass of Jack Daniels in the face of a restaurant manager, Berry and a posse of other Houston’s regulars chased the patron down the street.

Berry often held court at Houston’s, telling great stories to staffers and other bar patrons. Logan said Berry was the son of a Jewish mother who married five times, or seven times – it varied each time he told the story – and that as a child he had often been left alone at home to raise his younger sister on his own. Logan said she couldn’t tell sometimes when Berry was exaggerating.

Photo of Kimberly "Berly" Logan.

Kimberly “Berly” Logan.

He also spoke with great pride about being a former AJC reporter at a time when the paper was “cutting edge,” she said.

But his circle of influence had shrunk measurably over the years. He didn’t drive because whenever he hit a pothole, he would think he had run over a small child, Logan said. He moved to a Buckhead apartment complex close to Houston’s, where he could shop for groceries and reach public transportation on foot, Logan said.

She meanwhile told him about her love of travel, the mission trips she went on to South Africa one month every year, and her faith and the churches she attended.

Bar patrons, in general, “spill their guts. They ask you same four questions about yourself,” Logan said. ” ‘How’s your dog?’ ‘How’s your garden?’ ‘Why don’t you have a boyfriend?’ ‘When are you going to Africa again?’

“They didn’t challenge me like Robert did. He would talk about what he’d done with his life. He could also be repetitive, but his questions would just go deeper.”

Bartending is full of ebbs and flow of patrons. “Sometimes our conversations would be real in-depth and sometimes they would be very short,” she said. She learned to answer his tough questions with fewer words, distilling big ideas into a sentence or two.

They were never romantically interested in each other, but always had a spiritual connection. She told him she loved him and he called her his truest friend.

“I’ve never felt God,” she recalled him saying.

Photo of Kimberly "Berly" Logan, a bartender at Houston's Peachtree.

Kimberly “Berly” Logan, a former bartender at Houston’s Peachtree.

Over time, more of his personal history unfolded. He felt terrible about himself for leaving his wife for a married woman, who had left her husband to be with Berry.

“I am a horrible person,” he said to Logan.

“I believe in redemption,” was Logan’s response.

One day in 2009, Berry returned home after work. The woman he had left his wife for was gone.

That evening at the bar, Berry pleaded, “Berly, promise me you will never let me be homeless. Just never let me be homeless.”

She knew he was done trying to survive.

Beyond the bar

In 2010, Berry, who no longer had health insurance, was rushed to the hospital, where he nearly died, Logan said. “The doctors said, if you want to live, you’ve got to stop drinking,” she said.

He didn’t.

Berry would go to Alcoholics Anonymous meetings from time to time, “maybe because it was a place for him to pontificate about his issues a little bit,” Logan said. “But he would never doing anything about it.”

Photo of Robert Berry in July 2012.

Robert Berry in July 2012. (Credit: Robert Berry)

Area restaurants began to forbid him from entering their premises for awhile. Servers at other establishments, such as Houston’s temporarily stopped serving him alcohol, because his behavior, while drinking, was getting out of hand.

As Berry’s body began to fail, his interest in spiritual matters intensified, Logan said. He asked Logan to take him to a Catholic service, and accompanied her several times to her own church.

“We crossed our arms to receive a blessing because we aren’t Catholic and couldn’t take communion,” Logan recalled. “When he got back to his seat he goes, ‘Berly, I felt something I never felt before in my life.’ He felt like he should like fall on the ground. He was like ‘I have never felt the weight of this.’”

But that experience didn’t prompt external change. He was still drinking.

Logan’s choices

As Berry was dying, Logan was living more fully. In 2012, she had met Kevin Koppy of Detroit, and this spring he had moved to Atlanta and they got engaged.

Koppy pitched in to help Berry get to the grocery store, post office and bank. Berry gave the couple his blessing. “I’ve never met anybody that I thought would be good enough for you basically, and that man is,” he told her.

To some friends, Berry remained a committed atheist. Logan saw another side of him.

On April 22, Berry thanked the couple online for their “Christian offer” to do errands for him.

“I have certainly spent most of my adult life in search of faith, it’s passed me by so far, but I do what I can,” he wrote. “Of course, now it’s more important than ever, but I never got to the point of actual faith. Berly has been wonderful about taking me to church and all, and I have a vivid and serious interest here – I don’t know where this is going, but I most certainly try my very best.”

The flickers of hope were not enough for Berry’s survival. He couldn’t accept the power of love though Logan believed he thirsted for it.

At Houston’s, staff noticed his eyes turning yellow as his condition worsened without treatment.

“It was never in him to turn it around,” she said. “He mentally resigned himself. He intellectually decided he was going to die. It was like a slow suicide. That’s really what it feels like, a long slow suicide.”

Robert Berry’s death

In his last Facebook posting, dated May 3, Berry described an inability to leave his home. He was having massive headaches and hallucinating that many people were in his apartment.

“People from my past stand about my place all night, and I have great conversations with them,” he wrote May 3 on Facebook. “This isn’t a psychiatric thing at all, because of a year of sheer pain, it just is making up its own universe. There they are. And, I am very happy to have all my freal [sic] friends around me, looking over me, checking in on me.”

Berry went into hospice for the final 10 days of his life. On eight of those days, Logan visited. She spent one night on a pullout sofa.

He was not responsive, but she believes he heard her issue this challenge: As much as he knew he was pushing himself to death, that he would have that same level of knowledge of divine love.

Photo of Robert Berry with his dog on April 27, 2012

Robert Berry with his dog on April 27, 2012. (Credit Robert Berry)

“Lord, he has sought you in his messed up way,” Logan said she prayed over Berry. “I just ask you to honor his seeking. I know that you are far more merciful than we could even think or imagine. You are far more just at the same time.”

She didn’t know if her actions had changed him. “Over the years, I have only taken about 10 percent of your advice, and the other 90 percent I wish I had a do-over on!” he had written her a year before he died. “You are like a GPS of the soul or something.”

Berry, by challenging her to explain and live out her beliefs, had changed her. Even when she disagreed with his conclusions and decisions, Berry was honest about himself—and even in death, that example challenged her.

“Robert helped me get down to brass tacks,” she said. “Like what do what I really believe about the world? What do I believe about God? What do I believe about love? What do I believe about God’s love? What do I think about our friendship? He really helped me hash that out.

“Sure, it’s important to know why you think what you think, and to have logical foundations, but if you are not actually loving people, who gives a [hoot]? If you aren’t actually living it out, who cares?”

Robert Berry’s obituary listed no survivors. A private memorial gathering for him is scheduled for June 24 in Buckhead. Berly Logan will be there.

Ben Smith can be reached at [email protected]

Michelle Hiskey is a freelance writer and writing coach based in Decatur, and her day job is senior editor on Emory University's development communications team. Michelle worked at The Atlanta Journal-Constitution for 22 years as a sports reporter, columnist and Sunday feature writer, and her stories of recovery and redemption bridge unexpected places and people across Atlanta. She lives in Decatur with her husband Ben Smith, also a journalist, and their two awesome daughters. She can be reached at [email protected]

6 replies
  1. Concern Reader says:

    What a perverse, parasitic woman this Logan character. Just like the phony, superstitious, religiously masked sponger-types to springboard off of a sick, kindly, and generously accommodating intellectual like Berry. Anybody who actually knew Robert would never leverage his being in such a disgustingly exploitative and bizarre way. Smith and Logan, go to your churches, sit in your pews, drink your “blood of christ”, mentally masturbate over your religion…fine. Just don’t lump Berry or any other real people into your gibberish.Report

  2. Someone who loves Robert says:

    While I am eternally grateful for the friendship and support Ms. Logan provided to Robert, particularly in his final days, I feel that this article unfairly diminishes his memory. He was so much more than the man described here to so many people, even at very the end of his life. And as much as Robert may have enjoyed the spotlight, I don’t think he would have liked seeing this.
    If Mr. Smith and Ms. Logan truly felt the need to tell this story, they could have done so in a way that respected Robert’s privacy. And if Robert had a family to advocate for him, which he unfortunately did not, no one would have dared publish something like this. 
    Robert had his problems and they certainly contributed to his leaving us far too soon. But I hate  seeing his life reduced to some sort of cautionary tale or opportunity to proselytize.Report

  3. La Forensica Jr says:

    This whole thing is crap.  I knew Robert for 10 + years and though he was a deep and intelligent person, he was also very self centered and fake. He exaggerated on nearly every story he told and embellished things to no end.  We were one of the only people to give him a home during those years and he managed to crush relationships within our family, but would later place the blame on anyone but himself. Fact: Robert did not leave his wife for a married woman who later left him one random day. Fact: Robert screwed things up for himself- as in many of situations he faced during his life. Fact: The date of the picture with Robert and “his” dog was not April 27. 2012, but some time in 2002. Last Fact: That dog in the picture is not his, she “Ember” was mine. Ember died in 2002 when my mother was in the hospital after a severe illness, during which Robert never visited, while he was still married to her. They day my mother went into the hospital he left and returned to his apartment in Buckhead. Six weeks later he wanted to come back-which obviously did not happen and that is why he ended up alone.  As sad as his story of his damaged and destructive life may be-it was of his own doing.Report

  4. La Forensica Jr says:

    @Concern Reader Nobody every truly knew “Robert”.  You did not live with him for 10 years. Robert let people know him how he wanted them to know him-on his own terms. It was all superficial.Report


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